Remember me this way~

  Good Morning World!! Kinda miss blogging.. i know my blog do misses me too..Aww! Well,what am  i going to share is kinda bit my personal matter that evolves about my love life recently..And to all my viewers out there might be shocked upon what i'm going to tell.. I know it may sound awkward but it's damn true. It happened again.
Me and my boyfriend officially broke up recently. It's kinda heartbreaking to me as we both are so madly in love with each other. As people used to say it,maybe it's not our luck to be together.From the moment we broke up til' now i still can't accept the fact we're no longer together. There are certain things that we can't really share it to the public as it's kinda personal. Let it be our SECRET. I still kept on thinking the moments when we're together and the way he used to care about me. I missed all of that and i missed him so damn much. Even though we're no longer together but we're still remain as friends,close friends.. Gosh,i don't know why i'm starting to burst into tears again. Whenever i'm alone,i used to listen to our songs and reminisced the past. Totally hurts but what can i do??
  I hope he remembers me even if i'm not his girlfriend anymore. I hope he remembers me as I'm the one who caught his attention and captured his heart. I hope he remembers me as the girl who understands,loves him and cares for him and I hope he remember me this way. Knowing him is the best thing ever happened to me. I'll always remember and loves him no matter what.

~ For those of you with DOUBTS ~

 


  Don't doubt the power of Love,never give up on someone who makes you truly happy,regardless of the distance.

  My boyfriend and I have been together for 2months now,and i love him more and more every single day. I met the man that I am lucky enough to call mine on a social networking one day in December the 13th 2011 and i said to myself,"Hey,that kid is cute". But in such a coincidence he suddenly buzz me first. And i was like,"Oh-Owhh". It all started when he asked me whether I'm an Arsenal fan. Funny right? So we started to get to know each other and even share some things that I don't even share with my friends. One day,he suddenly asked me some weird questions which I already know what he's trying to tell me but I was kind of in denial that time. He was in College and I was working. We kept on IM-ing and then suddenly we kinda fall apart. We kinda lost contact for about 3months. Then miracle happened,we finally kept in touch again. Though it was kinda awkward but we managed to get closer and pretty much closer than before.
  In September the 5th,he finally proposed me to be his girlfriend and i said,'YES'.He told me that he loved me for the very first time. He wanted to breakdown and cry,terrified that i would laugh at him and wouldn't want to accept him. I can't described the happiness i felt that day. Now that I knew he was mine, I knew I had to make sure he's mine forever.
  Two months later,here we are today. So in Love and it's not even funny. With dreams of a life together,a family together,forever together. Dreams that one day will be a reality.
  When you find that person who loves you for EVERYTHING you are, and i mean everything. Every last quirk,every bad habit,every fear,every hope,every dream;you realize that even though you're thousands of miles apart,when you close your eyes,it's like they are there,and they have always been there. You realize that even though they aren't there with you,they always have been and they always will be in your heart.
  Please never give up on someone just because the distance becomes overwhelming. If I had given up,I wouldn't be the happiest I've ever been in my life. I wouldn't be engaged to the most wonderful man on this planet. Don't listen to anything negative anyone else says, they only bash because they aren't capable on loving someone on a whole other level, like we do, like we always have and like we always will.
  Arif Farhan, I Love You and I can't wait until the day we finally get to be together, and all the many memories we will get to make together in our happily ever after and our forever and always.

~ I Love You in a thousand miles ~

  I know were thousand miles away..But i want to be with you. I want to discover new things with you. And share it for the rest of our lives. I know it's hard to love in a distance. But as long as we have faith, I know we can do it. And we can live to the fullest.I know distance can lead us apart. But one thing for sure before it happen, I'll always love you in a distance and love you in a thousand miles..

~ Falling to a Stranger ~

  Once upon a time,a total stranger came into my life. I thought he was just like everybody else,who needs someone to talk to and after that he would go.. But as days go by, I've realized that a stranger become part of my life and the love that i needed he showed me. I want him to know that our feeling is mutual.. I want him to know that I've totally fallen for him..to a stranger..
  But as time comes and goes by, I realized that he is not a stranger because he is the one that caught my attention and love..


p/s : to specific someone

~ Happy 2nd Monthsary My Dear Love~

  Since you came into my life,i have never been the same. It was you who was missing in my life. The one i was looking for..And i'm so thankful to have you..though we may be having hard times and misunderstandings,nobody can erase the fact that I Love You and Always will.. I don't need nothing else to make me happy.. All in need is YOU. My world revolves around YOU.. The meaning of me is YOU.. Everything in me is YOU.. You don't know how much you make happy everytime i see your smile..
  When i'm hopeless and down,I just think about your LOVE.. and everything make sense again.. Your love is the most precious thing that i hold.. My LOVE for you will never fade. And if ever i would die and live again, i would live the same life that i had..it's because you were there..

  If i had one wish my wish would be with you.. and if they ask        why?.. I'll tell them "Cause your my dream come true...
It's because all i wanted and all i needed is YOU.. and if i ever lose you my heart will never be alive again..cause you're the air that i breathe the sun in my world.. and the stars in my sky.. You give me the strength to go on and held on to my life..You are just the Love of my Life.. I LOVE YOU,ARIF FARHAN~

~The LOVE of my LIFE!~

 Here we are again in another month,another page and another story.. Been quite busy lately,couldn't even have the chance to re-blog.. And now i'm taking this chance to tell share you my story which it just happened recently..

 Never knew i would open my heart to a new guy whom i never expected to be with. He was just a friend to me eventhough i knew that he admired me that much since the day we first known each other. DENIAL! that's what my heart wants to say. There was this time when he tried to ask me some sort of questions which i already knew his aims for my answer. And which i kept on ignoring him and treated him not more than just a friend. Instead of giving him the right answer,i just asked him to give me some time to think about it.

 At first i thought i would keeping on deny my feelings towards him but i can't.. i kinda missed how he cared for me,the way he kept n trying to win my heart and finally i have the courage to give him the answer but that time we kinda lost contact for a while.. When i was trying to give him that answer,i was devastated upon knowing him hooking up with another lady which i already know from the very start. Therefore i cancelled my plans to meet him. That's when i gave my heart a break for a while and flew to Aussie to ease my mind..
  People says that there will be a second chance if God's willing to give that chance again. Once again , we kept in touch but we're not as closed just like we were before. Then suddenly i have the strength to greet him first. That's where it all started when we kept on replying comment and all that. We kinda get closer once again and he even tried to approached me and popped out that question.. And YES! that was my answer. And he was so glad that we're finally official as a couple.
 Maybe i was so blind to see how sincere he is at the very beginning. But now i know that he really loves me that much. And so do i.. I love him so dearly and don't wanna let him go away.. He is the LOVE of my LIFE. The one i will spend my life with. I am hoping he feels the same way too..

my ONE & ONLY..

                                  

     ~ARIF FARHAN~




Devoted to u..
   Nessy!

Word of the day!

It's almost midnight which i can't really get myself to sleep. i just can't explain how i am feeling right now except MAD. And the word for today is SUCK! There are times when you feel your life is totally Suck.
I don't really understand why am i so angry right now..the feeling of disappointed for someone leads me to anger. I am totally llost right now which i can't even wanna talk about shits that kept on running through my head. Don't even think too hard when your in sour condition.
Aaarrgghhhh!!! Oh help me Lord.. I just can't help myself right now.. i don't wanna waste my tears on something that is not worth to be with or maybe someone who doesn't really give a damn about how we feel.. Giving yourself in and out into something is way overratted. I am not going to be a fool like i used to be before.
Forgive me for my rudeness but i just wanna let it all out.

Nessy!