When you love a person very much, even though you’re already experiencing pain, you just can’t let go. But sometimes, the heart gets really tired and the mind insists to let go cause the heart can’t take it anymore.
Sometimes I wish I’m different. Sometimes I wish I’m more than what I am right now. You know why? Cause maybe if that happens, the person I love will learn to like me, to care for me, to love me. I just wish you would.
I wish I can tell you I love you just to let you know I care, just to let you know I’ll always be there. I love you so much, you see? I guess that’s why it hurts to know how much you love her, not me.
I tried to say I love you but you didn’t care. I wanted to tell you but I couldn’t dare.
If loving means being loved then I do not love enough. If loving means being special then I have barely loved. But if loving means getting hurt then I love too much.
Loving you made me strong but it also made me weak. It made me happy but also depressed. It helped me up but also pulled me down. It taught me how to hold on but now it’s teaching me how to let go.
I don’t know why I’m so afraid to lose you when you’re not even mine. I don’t know why I care for you when you don’t even love me. I don’t know why you’re the one when I’m just nobody to you.
What do you think of me, a damn fool who wouldn’t mind getting hurt? I’m human and I can feel pain. Think of what you do cause I have feelings too. Please don’t show me you’re loving someone new.
I was willing to give you everything I had, I was willing to love you completely and I was willing to fight for you. But still, I had to let you go cause even though I was willing to do everything for you, you weren’t.
I can’t tell you I love you cause it doesn’t seem right. If I tell you those words, I might just give you a fright. If you think I’m kidding, you’re really wrong. I just can’t tell you I love you if it’s to someone’s heart you belong.
Lord, let me accept the fact that this is the farthest that I can get, the closest I could be and the clearest that I shall see and that no matter what I do, I can never make him love me too.
I like you, don’t you know? I care for you, don’t you know? I love you, don’t you know? How stupid of me to ask you these questions! Of course, you don’t! How would you know I like you, care for you and love you when you’re busy loving someone else?
Days continue to pass, stars continue to shine. Why do I have tears in my eyes today when he was never mine?
No matter how many tears I’ve cried, you’re still not there. No matter how sweet my smile was, you still didn’t care. No matter how much affection I show, I’m still at the dark. No matter how much I love you, you still broke my heart.
Do you know that the worst way I can miss you is not when you’re far away? It’s when you’re right beside me yet I know I can never have you.
It's not my fault if I can't help looking at you. It's not my fault if I can't stop calling you. It's not my fault I do like you. My only mistake was to fall to much in love with you.
And even though you lied, and even though you pretended to care I can't seem to get you out of my mind and even though it seems like I should be over you, with every tear that falls, it reminds me of how much I am still in love with you.
One day you'll look back and think... damn! that girl really did love me...
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