Thursday, 28 June 2012

~Land Down Under!~

Good Evening! This is my first entry for the month of June as i am way too busy these days. I am now in the 'Land Down Under',Australia! Yes! I'm here for a vacation. Considering i am here right now,my mom and aunt is trying to convinced me to moved and work here as well.. Hmm..i am still thinking about it yet.

 Okay,let's forget about it and stay focus on my story.. :D Well,i'm here for more than 2 weeks now and will stay here for 3 months (Quite a long Vacay,aite) hehe.. For 2 weeks time i manage to take a look around the places which i haven't been yet before. But the most interesting part is FOOD! Which i LOVE the most..haha..been trying so many kinds of food and i really enjoyed it. Thanks to my little sister as she's the one who brought me here and there along with her College mates and some of her friends from the church group. We kinda hang out watching movies,going to the beaches,dining some foods and we even spent our time visiting historical places.
  Owh my..it's like i've been here for ages. Hmm..i got nothing else to say..Just wait for my next post which is all about Foods.. :D
Till then, Goodnight and TATA! :)


Wednesday, 23 May 2012

~ the FEAR of FEELING~



she can.
she can't.
not here.
nor there.
voice uncommitted.
mind is blocked.
doesn't know what to expect.
pretty anxious.
but there's faith.
spinning aimless.
then she's found.
breathing.
excited.
nervous.
drained and filled again.
she hides you inside.
pumps her blood alive.
prepared.
but scared.
laughing.
battling.
plunging.
in love.
in search.
for something

to stop her

from

fearing

FEELING...

p/s : I am telling the truth,it's not only a words..hmm..I can lie,I can deny about anything but i never lie and deny about my feelings.. If i do,i don't meant it..I only need time in telling everything.. 

:)

KAY-HELL!

  Good Morning! I supposed to be post this lastnight but i was kinda tired and went to bed a bit early.. As you can see my title today,YES! i'm in KAY-HELL(KL) right now. Not on a Vacay but just for a business trip.
  So,here i am in a 'City that never Sleeps'. It feels good to be back here again and feel the warm breeze of KAY-HELL.. I just arrived here yesterday morning and headed straight to the hotel where i am checking-in right now. I'll be here just for a few days then will be back to KK for the 'Kaamatan' celebration.. :)
  Just woke up and having my breakfast here in my hotel room. Then will be getting ready to do my work.. Here's a sneak of peek..


OMG! Look how messy i am.. :p

Monday, 21 May 2012

~ Eyes Wide Open ~

My computer clock says Tues 2:35 AM. It's not as though I've been able to think straight this past week, due to my inability to cope well with lack of sleep. My eyes are drooping, and falling flat on my face from some mild form of fatigue would be the most logical thing to do. But, at this point, too much of my mental energy is also going into trying hard to adjust to a newfound state of busy-ness that is not anymore limited to 'productive summer breaks' (I used to spend my so-called Va-Cay, working). So many of my dreams are coming true (working with certain orgs and on certain projects) and I can't wait to take on each and every one of them.
 I thank God for work opportunities and the patience to take on each task and job I get. I crave being busy, having meetings to go to, paperworks to get done, places to visit and attending events. I love and want to do this kind of thing.
 Can I just say something, though... I have to get used to not being able to find the many quiet times I used to so enjoy, the free time I could use to do things like finish reading not one HALF of a book, but SEVERAL books.Of course, I go on my blog and find that I can be somewhat alone there for a moment, so here I am, venting to you at almost 3 in the morning. =p I'm not sure whether to flinch or savour it as the thought of the real world (or REEL world?) pierces my skin. All I know is you're "only as good as your last job" so you keep working hard for every day. I still can't sleep. I've been venting for an hour now, typing, deleting, typing deleting, typing. I realize that, maybe, I am just looking forward to the things I know I will be accomplishing this year (think positive!). With an average of 5 hours nightly, voluntarily or involuntarily, how do some people still make the most of each 'marathon' day? How do you start a new day when you haven't even ended the previous one yet? Gotta learn, gotta learn...
 Tick tock. I have to be up by 7 AM. Cheers!

spontaneous combustion..


In a brief conversation, a man, speaking to a woman, was out to pursue the question, "What kind of man are you looking for?"

She sat quietly for a moment before looking him in the eye and asked, "Do you really want to know?"
Reluctantly, he said, "Yes" as she began to expound...


"As a woman in this day and age, I am in a position to ask a man what he can do for me that I can't do for myself.

I pay my own bills.

I take care of my household without the help of any man- or woman for that matter. I am in the position to ask, 'What can you bring to the table?'"


The man looked at her. Clearly he thought that she was referring to money.

She quickly corrected his thought and stated, "I am not referring to money... I need something more. I need a man who is striving for perfection in every aspect of life."

He sat back in his chair, folded his arms, and asked her to explain.

She said,


"I am looking for someone who is striving for perfection Mentally. I need conversation and mental stimulation. I don't need a simple-minded man.

I am looking for someone who is striving for perfection Spiritually because I don't need to be unequally yoked... Believers mixed with unbelievers is a recipe for disaster.

I need a man who is striving for perfection Financially because I don't need a financial... burden.

I am looking for someone who is Sensitive enough to understand what I go through as a woman, but Strong enough to keep me grounded.

I am looking for someone who I can Respect. In order to be submissive, I must respect him. I cannot be submissive to a man who isn't taking care of his business. I have no problem being submissive... He just has to be worthy.

God made woman to be a helpmate for man. At this point, I can't help a man if he can't help himself."


When she finished her spill, she looked at him. He sat there with a puzzled look on his face, and exclaimed,  "You're asking for a whole lot!"

To which she gracefully replied...


"Only if you think I'm not WORTH a lot."

:)

Butterfly..


"When it comes to relationships,
maybe we're all in glass houses
and shouldn't throw stones.
Because you can never really know...

Some people are settling down,
some people are settling,
and some people refuse to settle
for anything less
than Butterflies."


(to Specific Someone.. Now i understand to hold you i must open up my hands and watch you rise...)

:)

~ The REAL DEAL...~

Sure, I'm seeing my father again, for the first time, after 10 long years. (12 years ago)

Sure, it's a big deal.

But this is the time to say: it was my mother who raised me and put herself through hell to keep our lives running, while he wasn't around.

It is my mother who always put effort into avoiding speaking ill about him, to give me a great impression of my father, growing up.

Sure, I've had to tweak and manipulate my mind to adjust to a 'new' concept of family through the years. It's worked out just fine, but it wasn't easy.

Sure, I love my father and my ex-step-father I love him a lot, but it is my mother who is worth more than anything. It is she, and not a man, who will walk me down the aisle for my wedding march.

Sure, I'm the daughter of. Get over it, we are all daughters/sons of someones.

Sure, I have my own life to live, my own name to build, and my own burdens to worry about.

But someone's gotta begin the process of resolving unfinished business.

Life is just too damn short to be so angry all the time.